adam and eve played me..

Sorry for not updating the post last night, but believe me – I wasn’t in any kind of mood to be blogging. (Not like I had time anyways, but that’s a different matter..) SO. Here’s the deal:

The MRI, CT scan, and the bone specialist I saw yesterday all confirmed that I have Fibrous Dysplasia. That link from the Mayo Clinic (MN represent! 😉 ) has a lot of really good information on everything from causes and symptoms to treatment and coping, but their definition is pretty spot on. Fibrous Dysplasia is 

Fibrous dysplasia is a bone disorder in which scar-like (fibrous) tissue develops in place of normal bone. As the bone grows, the softer, fibrous tissue expands, weakening the bone. Fibrous dysplasia can cause the affected bone to deform and become brittle.

It can also cause the bone to fracture, which is what happened in my femur. This would explain why the stress fracture in my fibula is almost 100% healed after this time off, but my hip hasn’t seen much of a difference. 

What do I do from here? Well, as I’ve learned is the custom in all of Boston health care, they send me to someone else. So now I have to go BACK again to see another doctor who also specializes in bones, but more especially in hips. The way this doctor laid it out for me was that I have three options: 

  1. Let the tissue/bone heal as much as possible, but give up running and all other impact activities.
  2. Have pins put in to help strengthen the femoral neck
  3. Have pins + reconstruction done to correct the angle of the bone that has become deformed over the years 

I’m gonna tell you right now that none of those options sound like a barrel of fun. But without surgery, Ifeel like I would be in this continuous cycle of like run for 4 months, fracture again, heal for 4 months, run, fracture, heal, run, fracture, heal.. ahh! No good. I’m still learning a lot about what to do from here, and trying to keep my chin up in the process. There was definitely a good solid hour (or two) of tear shedding yesterday (maybe that’s why I feel so dehydrated right now?!) but part of the elevated emotions aren’t even about the hip. School is definitely high stress right now.. I might be changing my major and I’m having to go to all these meetings and appointments for that, work, homework, architecture, cross training in an attempt to stay sane.. it’s definitely true that running is my therapy, and it’s not easy without it. 

Well, I’m out for now. I got work to do, models to make, and papers to write. 

And because a post isn’t worth anything without the obligatory photos:

 

me at work

me at work

the stellar six

the stellar six

 

 

 

 

    to be continued…

    This is gonna possibly/maybe be two very different posts, combined into one. Hopefully not, but just maybe. 

    Updates from the last leg/sfx/injury drama:

     

    • I have a stress fracture in my left fibula
    • I have a stress fracture in my left femoral neck (hip region)
    • I’m on crutches
    • I’m wearing an air brace
    • I haven’t run since September 27th, which is very quickly comin up on one month 
    • I had an MRI (found the femoral neck fracture)
    • I had a CT scan (confirmed the femoral neck fracture)

     

    Mmm lets stop there. I have an appointment with a bone specialist this afternoon, and I’ll edit and continue my post after that. But let me tell you: crutches effing suck. If you’ve ever been on them, then you know what I mean. If you haven’t, you have no idea. 

    With crutches, your are further gimpified by the fact that you can not:

     

    1. Walk and talk on the phone
    2. Walk and eat (critical in college)
    3. Walk and fix your hair
    4. STAIRS grrr
    5. Squeeze through small spaces and packed crowds – my former specialty
    6. Wear short sleeves.. although the insides of my arms are rubbed raw without them anyways
    7. Walk through a space quietly, because they clink no matter what
    8. Open doors
    9. Cary anything that’s not on your back. And most importantly..
    10. CARRY YOUR COFFEE

     

    Yeah. Sorta pissed. Umm.. I think it’s time to stop here (read: time to pay attention to Barrel Vault construction in the Colosseum..) and pick up where I left off tonight. I leave you with a photo of me and the lovely gimp sticks enjoying the Pumpkin Festival down at Faneuil this last weekend.

    this is the way I live..

     

    Haha you have to listen to Baby Boy to know the song reference. And nope.. my money stack is all of about [—] this high, I work HELLA hard, and the only big wheels I’m pushin are on my craigslist-crapper-bike that I got last week. Siiiigh. 

     

    This is mostly for my madre, who still hasn’t seen Northeastern or my suite, and I guess for anyone else interested in the lovelyness they call Honors Housing in West Village F. 😀 

    Up on my bed. I ❤ my brown sheets.

     

    My lovely roomy/killer all star swimmer Lauren

    My lovely roomy/killer all star swimmer Lauren

    D

    I decided to loft - it gave me so much more space! Note the craigslist mini fridge 😀

     

    My little desk. Got that Grandmas Marathon photo that was in the Star Tribune aka crazy chick running backwards..

    My little desk. Got that Grandma's Marathon photo that was in the Star Tribune aka crazy chick running backwards..

     

    We definitely need the dual sinks. There are SIX of us.

    We definitely need the dual sinks. There are SIX of us.

     

    Bathroom #1. Looks identical to bathroom #2.

    Bathroom #1. Looks identical to bathroom #2.

     

    )

    Our kitchen.. on a clean day 🙂

     

    A view of the kitchen with nothing in it..

    A view of the kitchen with nothing in it..

     

    A view of our living room. Only it isnt arranged like that anymore. And we have a teeny TV. ;)

    A view of our living room. Only it isn't arranged like that anymore. And we have a teeny TV. 😉

    Well.. that’s all I have for now. I’m actually sitting in World Arch right now and should be paying much more attention. Oooops. 

    ALSO.. I have my doctors appointment today. She’s going to go over my MRI films and then I should have a definitive answer on how long I’m out for.. if I need to stay on these ridic. crutches.. EEEEtc. Yuck. But necessary. I hope to be back with an upbeat post! Happyy Tuesday my blogging lovers.

    my fracking FIBULA..!!

    Read this with an angry face and try to understand my frustration:

    GRRRRRRR 😡

    Aright. First off.. the doctors appointment in and of itself was super frustrating. I got there 10 minutes before my scheduled appointment at 2:00 so I could fill out any paperwork they needed or get any health insurance forms copied. Done. I read a lil Family Fun while I watched patient after patient come in after me, and be called back to be seen. At 2:45, I start to wonder – wheeeere’s my appointment? 

    When I finally went in at 3:00, I saw the doctor pretty quickly after all the basics. From there, she felt up my leg (in a very doctorly way.. good lord!) and bended my leg from the hip to try and localize the pain. In comparison to my last stress fracture in my fibula (circa last November = month of HELL), this was/is way less painful. Last time when the orthopedic doctor pressed on my bone, I had to stuff my hand in my mouth to keep from screaming. It was excruciating. This… this I could take. It feels different than I know it should, but I can’t necessarily classify it as “pain”. Although it did feel like my ankle was legit going to break off last time I ran on it (over a week ago). 

     

    Mine is in the fibula, not tibia, which would have been way worse.

    Mine is in the fibula, not tibia, which would have been way worse.

     

    Four xrays later, it’s obvious I have a stress fracture in my lower fibula, left leg. My hip? Not so clear. My sports med doctor here at school is “SURE” I have a femoral stress fracture… but nothing showed up on the xrays. Then again, stress fractures almost NEVER show up on xrays. The time that they do begin to show is once the healing process has already started, and bone calcification is already taking place. I guess that’s a good thing in regards to my ankle, because that says the healing is already under way.

    So.. this femoral stress fracture. I’m going back for an MRI, and probably a bone density scan. Sweet.. more copays, more waiting, more appointments, more non-running. WTF MAN…

    Oh hey wait.. I was gonna be positive. I’m honestly trying. The good news is I’ve been going in the right direction this week – I can still swim and do the xt that I have been doing already. I’m not in tears (right now).. and I feel like since I’ve been through this before, there’s less of that hopeless/endless feel. 

    And part of healing and recovery is sleep. And that’s what I’m going to do right now. I just told all of my roommates that I’m starting my “midnight rule”.. which is simply that I’m NOT staying up past midnight unless it’s a Friday or Saturday. S.L.A.P.

    Night guys. I’ll be back with more, I’m sure. 

    Oh one last thing. The Boot. Please believe it was brought up. I am going to try going with an air cast for now, and hope/pray that that’ll be enough. Luckily my doctor agreed to that. So hey – one thing I can put on my list of “to be thankful for.”

    Ok.. night. For real this time.

    slacker..!!

    This is definitely a cheating post.. I have a ton to catch up on! I have a doctors appointment today though, and I feel like that will have a pretty big roll in what I have to say (femoral stress fracture? no no no!!).. so I’d rather just do one post about everything.

    I will say though.. I’ve been killin those pool workouts. 😀

    And I leave you with the Vegans 100 list: (feel free to participate!)

    1) Copy this list into your own blog, including these instructions.
    2) Bold all the items you’ve eaten.
    3) Cross out any items that you would never consider eating.
    4) Post a comment here once you’ve finished and link your post back to this one.
    5) Pass it on!

    1. Natto
    2. Green Smoothie
    3. Tofu Scramble
    4. Haggis
    5. Mangosteen
    6. Creme brulee
    7. Fondue
    8. Marmite/Vegemite
    9. Borscht
    10. Baba ghanoush
    11. Nachos
    12. Authentic soba noodles
    13. PB&J sandwich
    14. Aloo gobi
    15. Taco from a street cart
    16. Boba Tea
    17. Black truffle
    18. Fruit wine made from something other than grapes
    19. Gyoza
    20. Vanilla ice cream
    21. Heirloom tomatoes
    22. Fresh wild berries
    23. Ceviche
    24. Rice and beans
    25. Knish
    26. Raw scotch bonnet pepper
    27. Dulce de leche
    28. Caviar
    29. Baklava
    30. Pate
    31. Wasabi peas
    32. Chowder in a sourdough bowl
    33. Mango lassi
    34. Sauerkraut
    35. Root beer float
    36. Mulled cider
    37. Scones with buttery spread and jam
    38. Vodka jelly
    39. Gumbo
    40. Fast food french fries
    41. Raw Brownies
    42. Fresh Garbanzo Beans
    43. Dahl
    44. Homemade Soymilk
    45. Wine from a bottle worth £60/$120 or more 
    46. Stroopwafle
    47. Samosas
    48. Vegetable Sushi
    49. Glazed doughnut
    50. Seaweed
    51. Prickly pear
    52. Umeboshi
    53. Tofurkey
    54. Sheese
    55. Cotton candy
    56. Gnocchi
    57. Piña colada
    58. Birch beer
    59. Scrapple
    60. Carob chips
    61. S’mores
    62. Soy curls
    63. Chickpea cutlets
    64. Curry
    65. Durian
    66. Homemade Sausages
    67. Churros, elephant ears, or funnel cake
    68. Smoked tofu
    69. Fried plantain
    70. Mochi
    71. Gazpacho
    72. Warm chocolate chip cookies
    73. Absinthe
    74. Corn on the cob
    75. Whipped cream, straight from the can
    76. Pomegranate
    77. Fauxstess Cupcake
    78. Mashed potatoes with gravy
    79. Jerky
    80. Croissants
    81. French onion soup
    82. Savory crepes
    83. Tings
    84. A meal at Candle 79
    85. Moussaka
    86. Sprouted grains or seeds
    87. Macaroni and “cheese”
    88. Flowers
    89. Matzoh ball soup
    90. White chocolate
    91. Seitan
    92. Kimchi
    93. Butterscotch chips
    94. Yellow watermelon
    95. Chili with chocolate
    96. Bagel and Tofutti
    97. Potato milk
    98. Polenta
    99. Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee
    100. Raw cookie dough

    Hmmm.. I’m pretty sure some of that stuff on the list is definitely NOT vegan.. but many of those were in my pre-veg days. Some of the stuff I haven’t even heard of. 😉 Anywho.. time to get a move on.. expect a post in the near future.